Fear vs. Hope

Today I’m letting my guard down for a little bit to share some pretty raw emotions going on in my heart right now.

This year Jordan and I plan to begin trying for baby #2. I’m really excited for the many obvious reasons, but at the end of the day I’m a tad bit terrified. Honesty at its best. ;)

For those of you who know our journey of trying to get pregnant the first time, you know there were a lot of things we endured. There was a lot of pain, heartache, and joy; a lot of emotions in general. All of which were completely worth it because today I get the privilege to be a mom to the most incredible little munchkin I could ever ask for. However, there were some pretty dark moments in the journey for me and thinking about trying for a baby again reminds me of all those emotions. I’m just a tad bit scared we will endure the same type of journey.

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.' ~Eleanor Roosevelt 

That’s exactly how I felt after that 1st journey, but now that we’re coming up on journey #2 I've been asking myself “can I take all those emotions again?”

Part of me is hesitant, but the bigger part of me is reminded of that life verse I cling to daily which proclaims “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”. {Philippians 4:13}

It’s the hope and trust that I have in the Lord that gives me victory already. I have nothing to fear.

Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. I will help you. I will uphold you with my victorious right hand.” {Isaiah 40:10}

I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He will be by my side each step of the way and He will provide the strength I need for any trial that comes our way.

It’s silly to even have a little bit of fear when the God we serve is so big and so faithful, but we are human. The things we tend to fear the most are the things that have already happened to us.

I guess that’s where I’m at right now. However, I’m not going to let this fear get the best of me. I’m going to choose to keep my trust in the Lord who has already given me one little miracle that has been the best thing to happen to Jordan and I. I will not let fear override the joy the Lord has given me.

I don’t know where you’re at in your journey of life, but if there is something you are in fear of; know that you truly have nothing to fear. No matter how hopeless or how bad the journey may be there is someone who is by your side and will give you all the strength you need to look that fear in its face. I believe in you. :)



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