30 Days of Thankfulness: Day 28 My Disability
The birth of this blog was founded on my gratefulness to my greatest imperfection, my disability.
There are days when I feel resentful to my disability, but overall I’m thankful for living with Spina Bifida. I truly believe living with a physical disability has enabled me to find strength in places that I wouldn't necessarily seek if I didn't endure so many trials.
I’m thankful for the woman these trials and life circumstances have helped me to become. I’m thankful for the strength I have day to day to keep going, to keep moving, and to keep fighting against any trial that comes my way.
From 15+ surgeries, to toe amputations, to deformed legs and feet, to being told I could never be pregnant, to being told I’d never walk or run….I am a conqueror and I owe it to the source of all my strength, Jesus Christ. Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” That has been my life verse/motto from the moment I let Jesus into my heart.
Without the strength of Christ or the love and support of my beautiful family and friends; I know without a shadow of a doubt I would've given up a long time ago. There are still days I wish more than ever I could carry my son around like other mothers do or run around and chase him like my husband does or wear cute stilettos or wear shorts to show off my legs or grocery shop without being in pain when I'm done or run a marathon. There are so many things I wish I could do, but when I step back and look at my life I realize I have more strength, more peace, more joy, and more blessings than I ever thought possible and I understand without living my life each day with a disability that creates a strength in me to chase after those things, I may not have become so blessed to have the things I fought for.
My life isn’t always sunshine and rainbows, but it’s a pretty great life. I know that finding Christ as my strength early on has allowed me to place my hope and faith in a God who has never let me down. Don’t get me wrong; He’s taught me plenty of lessons, but He’s never forsaken me.
Sometimes it takes big things in our lives to bring us to our knees so that we can find where our strength truly comes; for me that strength has been in Christ and that “thing” is my grateful imperfection.
Each one of us has imperfections. I pray you find the beauty in those imperfections; see what they have allowed you to overcome in your life, see where they have brought you peace, see where they have brought you joy, and be grateful for them.