Lord, have Your way in me.

 

I took this picture as a funny “ha ha! look at my view” to send to a friend. Little did I know in that moment that this picture would be part of a post where again I’m sharing news about my health.

Ladies - this is your reminder to make sure you have an annual appointment scheduled with your OB/GYN and to not overlook symptoms that you think you know what they’re from.

Last Friday I had an appointment with my OB/GYN to discuss all these lovely perimenopause symptoms I’ve been enduring for the last 6 months or so. The last 4 months I was dealing with one particularly annoying symptom that I assumed was from peri. I was wrong.

What I thought would be a normal appointment with a plan to present to my hematologist ended up being a discussion of the next steps to rule out the concern of cancer.

There’s that word again. Another gut punch. Another moment the wind was knocked out of my sails. Another health concern where that C word overwhelms every part of mind.

I took a deep breath. Listened to my NP about her concerns as she shared what else it could be and her advice to move quickly to rule out cancer.

One step at a time. I’ve got this. I walked out of the doctor's office grasping for peace but ultimately asking the Lord a lot of “whys”. Why? Why another health issue? Why another situation in fighting to surrender to You while in turn begging - please, not me? Why Lord, please tell me why?

While I’m still asking Him questions, I’m also resting in the peace that the Father is good and no matter what, His will is all I want. However, a break from health issues would be nice too. 😉

Today I meet with an NP who will run some labs; Friday I go in for an ultrasound. Depending on those results, a biopsy may be scheduled. Believing for good news and no need for a biopsy.

I’m still on track to meet with my hematologist next week to see what can be done to help ease some of this perimenopause life. It’s no fun. If you know, you know. Living with Factor V limits my options, but I’m hoping that there is something that can help. I’m sure Jordan and the boys are hoping for that too. lol!

Overall, I’m praying for good results obviously, but I’m also praying that through all this the Lord will continue to use me to be a vessel that honors Him and furthers His kingdom. I have moments where I crumble, moments where all I can do is sing praise to Him, and moments where there is a beautiful amount of peace and hope.

Lord, have Your way in me.

xoxo,

Krista